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Posted (Josh) in All Posts on April-27-2009


Ella slept solid through the night and had a great day today. So much so, that she even tolerated her OT time and had a good feeding.


The little monkey even did her best trying to chew through her O2 cord, “Who says I need oxygen!”

She’s been all smiles this evening too. So glad to have those beautiful blue eyes to stare into.

Personally, I had a lot better day. Thank you for all the prayers. Considering the extreme mood swing from yesterday to today, I’ll take it as the Lord preparing my heart though. Today really was better, even with the news I’m about to share.

Tina had her follow-up ultrasound today. We were able to see a lot more of the baby. Arms, hands, legs, feet, head….but…

…there was no longer a heartbeat. We were not totally surprised, but it was quite a surreal moment. Our baby was gone.

Before wrapping up the ultrasound, we asked the technician if she could tell the gender of the baby. I think she knew already, but wasn’t sure if we wanted to know. She was able to point out on the ultrasound that it was a boy. Ella has a little brother in heaven.

After talking over the options with the doctor we decided to minimize the risk to Tina and have labor induced tomorrow morning. This is what the doctor recommended as well. Hopefully the process will go smoothly, and with minimal physical pain.

We praise our Heavenly Father for this precious life and are thankful for his merciful touch. I know right now that my earthly father, who is with our Lord, is enjoying some time with his grandson right now.

Please pray that the delivery will go smoothly tomorrow without incident. Specifically pray for Tina’s health and comfort as well as the state of our emotions throughout the day.

Thank you all so much for your support during this difficult time. Your words of encouragement and support are so upllifting. We also take to heart those that choose to share very few words, as they mean so much as well.

Continuing to hold tightly to God’s promises…and savoring the life of Ella Renae which is a salve to our wounded hearts.

Revelation 21:4 (NLT)
“He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”



Debbie Bennett on April 27th, 2009 at 9:15 pm #

I am simply at a loss for words… please know that we are lifting you up in prayer. Your family has been through so much, but the Lord is CARRYING you!

The Brittain Family on April 27th, 2009 at 9:46 pm #

Our prayers are with you. May He be your comfort and strength.

sherry martinez on April 27th, 2009 at 9:46 pm #

your in my thoughts and prayers. so sorry for your loss. hugs sherry and baby cayden

Linda.willingham on April 27th, 2009 at 9:54 pm #

Know that I am praying for your family. Hold close to Christ and each other. Praise that Ella slept through the night last night. Linda

Jenny G on April 27th, 2009 at 10:05 pm #

My prayers are with you.

Amber Riley on April 27th, 2009 at 10:07 pm #

Praying for your family…

Rainey Family on April 27th, 2009 at 10:30 pm #

I have tears in my eyes as I am typing this. I am so sorry for your loss. You guys have really been through so much. Saying many prayers for you all, especially tomorrow.

Kristy on April 27th, 2009 at 10:41 pm #

My prayers are with you. I am so sorry for your loss. (((HUGS)))

Kristy, mum to angel SKYLA, LCDH
http://skylacdhbaby.blogspot.com

Julie Kirk on April 28th, 2009 at 1:59 am #

thank you for sharing this. Thank God for the “Real Life”. Love and prayers.

Joel Snyder on April 28th, 2009 at 2:14 am #

Ella, I am so grateful that I have your Mom and Dad and you in my life to help me through news like we got today. I am praying that your Mom and Dad will be safe and well and that we can all be at peace with the loss of your baby brother. I thought that I would be better prepared but I am suffering from a broken heart again. Josh and Tina know that I am with you on your journey and that I Love you. I will be praying for you both. Love,Grandpa!!!!!!!!!

whitney on April 28th, 2009 at 3:14 am #

i will pray for your hearts, as i know this is a very sad day for you both, but hold strong you are so loved and such a gift to the world.

Adrienne (Melissa's sister) on April 28th, 2009 at 4:08 am #

PRAYING PRAYING PRAYING…….

Kathy in West Texas on April 28th, 2009 at 4:10 am #

I’m so sorry. But now he is healthy and whole and with Jesus! I will keep ya’ll in my prayers!

Rachel on April 28th, 2009 at 4:13 am #

I am so very sorry for your loss. I pray that you feel God’s love and know His perfect peace which surpasses all understanding.

GrandmaSherl on April 28th, 2009 at 4:19 am #

I’m so sorry for what you have to all go through. My prayers will be with you during this difficult day. Just know your blog touches my heart. Your strong faith is amazing!

Lesli Richards on April 28th, 2009 at 5:20 am #

Lifting you up in prayer today. I’m so sorry. Love, Lesli

Eve Sheridan on April 28th, 2009 at 5:22 am #

I am so very sorry, Josh and Tina. Giving you my deepest prayers and positive thoughts for Tina’s health and emotional support today. Love from the Sheridan family.

Corie O'Brien on April 28th, 2009 at 5:43 am #

I am so very sorry. Praying for you today and that you will feel a Peace only our Father in Heaven can give. He is there with you and He is in front of you. Praying for comfort and love through tears. I am hear if you need ANYTHING!

Chambers Family on April 28th, 2009 at 6:12 am #

I dreamt of you all last night — That I was watching Ella for you while you went to take care of things (wasn’t sure what) and she scared me because she started to crawl down the stairs! (not really crawling yet in real life – right?) But you all have been on my mind and now in my dreams. We will be thinking about you all today especially Tina.

Eve Johnson on April 28th, 2009 at 6:42 am #

Praying for you all in His love.

Elizabeth Norman on April 28th, 2009 at 7:01 am #

We are lifting you all up in prayer.

Loren B on April 28th, 2009 at 7:05 am #

Josh and Tina, we are so sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with you and your family. God Bless! Love, The Belanto family

Tracy Mitchell on April 28th, 2009 at 7:06 am #

Sending you guys hugs from TN ~ praying…GOD will comfort your heavy hearts.

Lori Vodnik on April 28th, 2009 at 7:31 am #

Thinking of you both so much right now. Everyday you’re in our prayers and we’ll be talking to Him a lot today. Love you guys.

megan on April 28th, 2009 at 7:47 am #

Praying for all of you! Hugs~

The Laz Fam on April 28th, 2009 at 8:01 am #

~Praying!~ We love you!

Anne in Gainesville on April 28th, 2009 at 8:12 am #

You are in my prayers on this very difficult day. May the Lord hold all of you in his arms and comfort you.

Heidi Ham on April 28th, 2009 at 9:14 am #

Praying for all of you…Tina and Josh I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being such a blessing to all of us through sharing your lives in Christ.

Joan and Steve Odell on April 28th, 2009 at 9:29 am #

We support you and are walking beside you in prayers – We love you – Steve and Joan

Laura Sizelove on April 28th, 2009 at 9:34 am #

We’re so sorry for your loss. We’re praying for you.
-Jon & Laura

Cliff, Diane and Sonic Blue on April 28th, 2009 at 10:05 am #

Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Especially today.

Much Love !

aunt Marla on April 28th, 2009 at 10:17 am #

Praying for you all

tracy on April 28th, 2009 at 10:32 am #

Praying for you both…

annie (nurse at Shands) on April 28th, 2009 at 11:32 am #

So sorry for your news. Will continue to be praying for your family. Glad to hear Ella allowed you some sleep last night.

krista on April 28th, 2009 at 11:45 am #

So sorry, there are no other words.

Williamsburg on April 28th, 2009 at 11:54 am #

Having the God-given ability to feel doesn’t seem like much of a blessing when the feeling is such pain from our broken hearts. Even in that I’d rather have a heart of flesh than of stone to be able to be with you in spirit. All our love and prayers with you today and always. XOXOXO

Jan Costas on April 28th, 2009 at 12:08 pm #

Praying you feel the strong presence of the Lord. I’m lifting you up.

Kelli on April 28th, 2009 at 12:13 pm #

As I sit here with my fingers on the keyboard I realize that I have no words. My prayers are with you now and always.

Jen Miller on April 28th, 2009 at 1:13 pm #

You all are in my thoughts and prayers. Hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow and you’re back home with The Bun in no time. I have no doubt her baby brother will always be watching over her now.

Rebecca Forbes on April 28th, 2009 at 1:22 pm #

you have been in my thoughs constantly today. Please know many prayers are being said for your family.

Liz Nelson on April 28th, 2009 at 1:58 pm #

I am thinking of you today and have you in our prayers.

Lisa Correia on April 28th, 2009 at 2:39 pm #

Josh, Tina and Ella,
We are lifting you up in prayer. I am so so sorry for your loss of your little boy. You guys are such an inspiration to so many and bless so many lives everyday. Please know that you are being lifted up in prayer all over the country. We love you guys.

Jennifer Harris on April 28th, 2009 at 3:02 pm #

Your family is always in our prayers. May the peace of our Lord be with you.

Jodi on April 28th, 2009 at 3:14 pm #

Josh and Tina, I’m so sad over the loss of your little son. Please know that you and Ella are in my prayers often, and will be so even more this week.

Darcy on April 28th, 2009 at 4:49 pm #

You are in my prayers, I am sorry for the loss of your little boy.

Laura Marold on April 28th, 2009 at 5:15 pm #

Oh Josh and Tina!!!! Sending you LOVE. I’m keeping you BOTH in my prayers. Love, Laura M.

Debbie on April 28th, 2009 at 5:49 pm #

Lifting you up in prayer (including Grandpa). You are loved so very much.

Melanie on April 28th, 2009 at 5:52 pm #

I have followed your blog shortly after Ella’s birth from Par. You have been in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be.

Dawn Franck on April 28th, 2009 at 7:30 pm #

Tina and Josh, I can’t stop thinking about you and what your family is going through. I hope everything went O.K. today and my heart is breaking over the pain you have endured. All my love, Dawn

Jill E G on April 28th, 2009 at 7:38 pm #

Praying for you guys. Hopefully labor will go smoothly and quickly for you. Take time to cherish your son when he is born and don’t be afraid to take pictures even if you don’t ever share them with anyone. I’ll be thinking of you all lots tomorrow.

Lesli Richards on April 28th, 2009 at 7:44 pm #

praying and thinking of you. love to you all on this really hard day.
Love, Lesli

Michael and Sue on April 28th, 2009 at 8:01 pm #

Josh and Tina, you are in our thoughts and we are praying for you. We love you!

Christe Mitchell on April 28th, 2009 at 8:27 pm #

Tina & Josh, my heart is breaking for you guys. Lifting you up in prayer.
God Bless, Christe

Alicia Martin on April 28th, 2009 at 8:50 pm #

Your little boy has followed suit with his sister and parents by touching so many hearts. I pray for a peaceful day tomorrow feeling God’s embrace as you take another step in your journey.

Sharon Moran on April 29th, 2009 at 4:22 am #

Please know that we are greiving along with you and you are in our thoughts and prayers as you face the difficult days ahead.

Tamera on April 29th, 2009 at 6:55 am #

I am so sorry for your loss. I am the mama of 5 angel babies and the grief of losing each one has been almost overwhelming. Your amazing strength in the midst of so much adversity is inspiring and I am in awe of your incredible attitude. Many prayers to you.

Kate (@Shands) on April 29th, 2009 at 7:51 am #

Your family is in my prayers.

Kara on April 29th, 2009 at 9:59 am #

She is such a gift. Thank the Lord for your sweet little girl.

erica on April 29th, 2009 at 10:28 am #

I am so sorry for the loss of your son. Our daughter, Angel, is up in heaven and I am sure she welcomed your son with open arms, along with the rest of the children up there. My hearts aches so badly for you. If you ever need to talk about your grief journey, we are here for you. HUGS.

Debbie Thomley on May 5th, 2009 at 12:05 pm #

Tina and Josh No words can heal your hurt. When our son was paralyzed in 1995 I was like Tina in that I would have melt downs when I was alone in the car. When speaking to our priest he told me crying was to the heart like a shower is to the body. Ella is looking so cute like a little girl now not a baby. Your whole family is continually in our prayers. We just went on a vacation with Matt and Abby and Caed and Austin to the beach. Enjoyed it. Josh at a time like this I know the men sort of get left out. We lost two babies between our son and daughter and so many people talked to me but not Don and he hurt the same as I did. You both are amazing parents and are to be commended at your devotion to the Lord and your family.

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