Ella is doing fine. She did have a positive day. I had a good time interacting with her and even spent some time with the occupational therapist, learning techniques to help Ella progress mentally and physically.
 
I was also able to visit baby Par down in the NICU 2. It was so great to see him in person! He looks like such a little man! And yes…he totally looks like his dad, Rusty…sorry Liz =). When I was there Liz started bottle feeding him, and it looked like he was taking to it pretty well. Thank God. Hopefully they will experience this trend more.
 
Regarding the title of this post, it is an expression of how I’m feeling at the moment. I’m tired tonight. I left the NICU around 11:30pm. I’m feeling a bit anxious for a few reasons.
 
First, there is no comfort in having the wife so far away these days. I can’t wait for her to come home on Saturday.
 
Second, I got to hang out with some of our favorite nurses, who are so incredibly special to us, and we’re going to miss being around them. Not only because we love them so much, but because they love our girl so much. I pray and hope that we can find a support system in Colorado that will be as incredible as these nurses have been.
 
And the third reason flows along with my heavy heart. Jonathan is not doing well. We trust the Lord that this precious boy is in His hands, but it is so difficult to see this kind of situation. I saw Jasmine for a moment as she was leaving the NICU, and she even asked if I was going to be around tonight. I said I was, but I didn’t see her come back while I was there.
 
Please pray for her. This is an incredibly difficult thing to go through.
 
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.
 
May our Lord’s peace be upon Jasmine, Chris, and the rest of their family this evening and in the days to come.
 
2 John 1:3
Grace, mercy and peace from God the Father and from Jesus Christ, the Father’s Son, will be with us in truth and love.