Posted (Tina) in All Posts on December-15-2008

Ella had an “ok” day. Kelly relayed that she seemed more fussy than usual. On a feeding note, that seems to be going well. The increase in food while working toward full bolus feeds has continued strong.

I did not have a great birthday. This morning, our sweet little miniature dachshund passed away unexpectedly. Her 10 year old heart just decided to stop working. And although we don’t spend each day with her anymore, I’m very sad.

Joslin (aka Taco) has spent the last 1.5 – 2 years with my Dad mostly. I was traveling back and forth to LA every week for work (while pregnant) and then we left Colorado to go to Florida for Ella’s birth and hospital stay. During that entire time, Joslin and Manny have kept my Dad company.

Now, my heart is sad for my Dad. He misses Taco a lot already. And Manny, he howls if you separated him from Joslin. Now when my Dad goes to work, Manny is by himself. I’m sure he doesn’t understand where his sister has gone. They are used to snuggling at night together while they protect the house.

I don’t have a picture, but hanging off the fireplace are two stockings: one for Taco and one for Manny. My Mom made the stockings several years back. And Christmas was always one of Taco’s favorite times – she loved ripping open gifts. I was really looking forward to it.

I’m thankful that Taco and Manny came over for Thanksgiving and I spent some good time with her. But my heart is still sad.

Last year, I was in the NICU with Ella and this year, my dog passes away. Prayers for the grief to subside and for better birthdays in future years ahead.

Kim and Brian Brennan on December 15th, 2008 at 11:30 pm #

So sorry about the loss of Joslin. It’s such a drag to loose a furry kid. We have been there to many times in our 25 years together. Next year will be a wonderful time for all. Just expect the best and it will be. We can sure try for that anyway. Hugs to you all, Kim and Brian

Kim and Brian Brennan on December 15th, 2008 at 11:32 pm #

Oh, and of course, happy birthday!

Pat & Bob Hadden on December 16th, 2008 at 12:12 am #

So sorry. We lost our dear Rasta (13 year old cat) shortly before my birthday a couple of months ago. His brother misses him terribly as we do. With all the heartache you experience when Ella’s in pain, and just the general levels of stress and exhaustion, this must weigh heavily.
Our thoughts and sympathies are with you. Love, Pat and Bob

Debbie on December 16th, 2008 at 4:39 am #

My heart goes out to you Tina. My dog passed away Saturday morning and I am missing her so much too. She was my best friend.

Kathy in West Texas on December 16th, 2008 at 4:57 am #

Oh I’m so sorry you lost your dog! I know how hard that is. I was in HS when our dog died, and I didn’t think it would bother me that much, but I ended up bursting into tears in the middle of marching rehearsal!

I will be keeping you all in my prayers, and I hope ya’ll have a wonderful Merry Christmas!

And I’m sorry your dad is missing that sweet doggie! I always enjoy reading about your dad, or what your dad writes, because he seems like he’s a fun guy! (Waving!)


Anne-Gainesville on December 16th, 2008 at 8:23 am #

Even though I’m a daily “lerker” and don’t often write, you remain in my thoughts and prayers. It is so difficult to lose a beloved pet. There is a beautiful poem on called the Rainbow Bridge that I give to people who are grieving the loss of their special friend. It is difficult enought without having it happen on your birthday. As my grandson told me at 5 when his beloved Crackers died, “Crackers will always be in my heart.” I often think of those words of wisdom. Many blessings to you and special pets to Manny, who will grieve too.

Eli Brown on December 16th, 2008 at 8:26 am #

I am so sorry your birthday didn’t turn out to be a happy day. I pray that your grief will pass and that next year will be a great Birthday.

Joan and Steve Odell on December 16th, 2008 at 8:48 am #

We’re so sorry about your dog. Sure your Dad is grieving as well. Hope next year is a happier birthday for you, Tina. Glad Ella is tolerating her food so well – what a blessing. Stay warm and safe all of you. Hugs and prayers continue for everyone – Steve and Joan

Lisa T on December 16th, 2008 at 8:54 am #

Tina, I am so sorry about Taco! It’s so hard to lose a pet in general, especially during this time of year and even more so during your birthday. They are such a comfort with their blind and unconditional love and affection. At least Taco died peacefully after a long and love-filled life.

Ella looks great and that’s promising news about the improvement in feeding. I hope the holidays hold only good surprises now for you and the fam!

Terri Trainer on December 16th, 2008 at 9:12 am #

Hang in there sister. Only 2 yrs 14 days and some odd hours until SPA WEEK!!! Remember that I’m totally game if you need a warm up prior to my big 40. 😉
I love you and am sorry you had a crappy-crappy day instead of a happy-happy day. I’m glad you were born and are a part of my life. Remind me to send your mom and dad a thank you note for having you!!

Fran Jarrett on December 16th, 2008 at 10:27 am #

Tina, I am so sorry for your loss. I remember my first meeting with Joslin many years ago and how sweet she was. My heart goes out to your Dad as well. Like Kathy in Texas, I enjoy your Dad’s posts and make sure I read them!
And no matter what some people might say about animals, Manny will grieve the loss of his sister.
My love and prayers are with you, Fran

Kelli Billman on December 16th, 2008 at 1:58 pm #

Tina and Josh, sorry to hear about Joslin. I remember when you got her and the stories you’d tell every morning about what she was doing. I’ll miss your dad’s posts about Taco and Manny!

Joel Snyder on December 16th, 2008 at 3:36 pm #

Ella, I have tried to start this post to you today several times. I am glad to hear that you are doing O.K. I am spending my time with Manny and grieving the loss of Joslin. Manny did really well last night but he has been letting me know that he misses his sister. Tina and Josh thank you for all your help yesterday I needed your support and comfort. Tina I am so sorry that this happened on your birthday. Thank you to all the people who have posted and to all that I know care about us. I am trying my best to remember my Joslin and all the great joy she brought into my life. Time will help to mend the heartbreak but I am still grieving but must do my best with Manny. Ella have a great day. I will catch you later. Love,Grandpa!!!!!!

Jim and Char Jordan on December 16th, 2008 at 3:49 pm #

Oh, Tina, I am so very sorry. Tula is now 6 years old and had a very tenuous first 2 and 1/2 years. I know it will be very difficult for you and Josh not to mention your dad. He is such a sensitive guy. Please consider looking for another pal for Manny,when you are ready. I am so very sorry. We know of the loss of beloved pets. Father will provide. I am so proud of you and your wonderful little family. We will pray for comfort for you all. LOVE, Jim and Char

Chris on December 16th, 2008 at 5:58 pm #

I’m so very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved Joslin. Four months ago, our 12 year old cat, was diagnosed with chronic renal failure. His care and treatment was my biggest worry in the world, until 2 weeks ago when our baby was diagnosed with CDH. It is so hard to lose a good friend, especially when you have so many other worries in your life, and especially on your birthday. My condolences to you and your dad. I sincerely wish you a happier birthday next year!

Julie's friend Lynn on December 16th, 2008 at 6:23 pm #

Tina, tell us what you want for Christmas so we can buy you presents, please.

Chambers Family on December 16th, 2008 at 9:10 pm #

All dogs go to Heaven week… We lost our little Minnie at just four months old… I like to think of her as the spunky puppy in heaven with wings. I am so sorry for your loss and on your birthday. So tough. And just talking about it has sent me into tears this week! Super tough time for you. You are strong and vulnerable all at the same time. Better days ahead… I promise.

Vicki/CO on December 17th, 2008 at 8:20 pm #

I am so very, very sorry about Joslin. Our pets are such beloved parts of our families, and it is always so hard when they have to leave us. And I know it was especially hard, Tina, because it was your birthday. I just lift you all up for strength and comfort as you walk through the grief and sadness (for your father and Manny, too). God bless you all. Thank goodness, He is there beside you through this as He has been with Ella.

Kara on December 19th, 2008 at 4:26 pm #

One more bad birthday to go and then all the rest will be great!

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