Posted (jooosh) in All Posts on October-8-2007

I can’t even imagine life without that smile. We’ve missed seeing it over the last few weeks, but it’s back, and cuter than ever.

I have never known love like I love my baby girl. Don’t get me wrong, I love my wife, but this is just….it’s hard to even describe. I’m sure other parents can relate.

What gets me though, is that I’ve not been able to fully “drink” her in. I think there’s an aspect of my own self-preservation that has not allowed me to fully accept that she’s MY baby girl. And yet I love her THIS MUCH!

To be able to hold her, pat her on the back, have her fall asleep on me…how much sweeter can it get!

What blows my mind too is that our God relates to us this way. He calls us His children:

Romans 8:15-17
15 So you have not received a spirit that makes you fearful slaves. Instead, you received God’s Spirit when he adopted you as his own children. Now we call him, “Abba, Father.” 16 For his Spirit joins with our spirit to affirm that we are God’s children. 17 And since we are his children, we are his heirs. In fact, together with Christ we are heirs of God’s glory. But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering.

He desires that kind of relationship. What an awesome visual of His love for us.

Being Ella Renae’s dad has given me even more appreciation for our Heavenly Father’s love for His children. Praise God that He is not some out there entity floating in space, but instead, is our Father who desires a personal relationship with each of His children.

Thank you Lord for loving us as a Father loves a child. Thank for creating us uniquely in your image, and for knowing us better than we know ourselves! You even know the number of hairs on our head! (Luke 12:7) Your magnitude is beyond our mind’s comprehension (you spoke the universe into existence!), and yet You love each man, woman, and child and desire a personal relationship with them.

We praise you Lord for your nature, and for allowing your Son to be the ultimate sacrifice, cleansing us of our sins, so that we may come into your presence and be considered worthy. Worthy, not by any works we could perform, but by Christ’s blood shed on the cross (Romans 3:21-28).

Lord, let us look to you for guidance and wisdom in all that we do. Let our lives be a living testimony unto you. We praise you Lord, in Jesus name. Amen.

Ella continues to do well (Thank you Jesus!). Her saturations continue to hover around the 100% mark, and her blood gas this morning looked great too (pH=7.44, cO2=33, pO2=115). Her urine output is still cranking along (310ccs), and chest fluid output continues to drop (19ccs).
All these things as well as Ella’s overall mood are indicators that her fluid output looks to be resolving. We’ve not received any definitive feedback on her x-ray today, but we’re expecting positive news.
Please continue to pray for our baby girl. It looks like we may be finally getting over the fluid issue hurdle, but there are plenty more hurdles ahead. Thank you for the continued support and prayers. Great peace and strength is delivered through them.
God Bless

Adrienne (Melissa's sister!) on October 8th, 2007 at 10:00 am #

OMIGOSH! That is the BEST POST and I can so relate to understanding God on such a different level when you have a child. It’s like the light goes on and you get that whole parent/child picture… PRAISE GOD! I am soooo blessed and will fall asleep so happy tonight knowing that Little Ella is on the UPSWING! Yeah God! : )

Loren L on October 8th, 2007 at 10:06 am #

She is Fabulous! My goodness that smile would make the even Grinch’s heart grow. I will keep praying that all of you continue to be blessed with all these gifts.

Shelly on October 8th, 2007 at 10:12 am #


Mike & Debi Van Eps on October 8th, 2007 at 10:44 am #

Amen to that Josh!!! What an amazing amount of love we find out we have in our hearts once we hold our own children in our arms. Check out Isaiah 40:11 “He tends his flock like a shepard. He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart, he gently leads those with young.” What a wonderful Father we have in heaven and what a wonderful gift to get a glimpse of that love through our love for our children. God has truly given the both of you a wonderful gift in Ella. We praise Him for all He has done.

Angie on October 8th, 2007 at 10:46 am #

What a cute picture of her smiling! 🙂 I’m so glad she’s been doing better. Still prayin’. Hugs & Kisses to Ella. ~Nurse Angie

Joan Odell on October 8th, 2007 at 11:40 am #

There are no words to describe the love you have for your child(ren) – We are so blessed – my joy for both of you and Ella is overflowing – prayers continue – hugs Steve and Joan

Euseys on October 8th, 2007 at 12:22 pm #

It looks like she is laughing. Best picture yet!

Hugs and prayers

Ella’s favorite Auntie ; )

the Dirrim family on October 8th, 2007 at 12:28 pm #

Praise God for that beautiful smile. Enjoy this precious gift you have been given. We will continue to pray for healing and new milestones to be met.
The Dirrim family

Roxie Moore - Adrienne's friend on October 8th, 2007 at 12:33 pm #

When I clicked on your site what a delightful big smile. Praise His Holy Name. He has and is giving you a “crash course” in the love of a parent. We are so grateful to be even a little part of your lives… thank you for sharing with us. Roxie 🙂

Joel Snyder on October 8th, 2007 at 12:35 pm #

Ella, What a great picture of you smiling. I am still hoping for the steady progress that you have been making. I am praying for you as the new challanges appear. Josh and Tina what a beautiful little girl. I Love you and will check on you later. Grandpa!!!!!!!

Kristen on October 8th, 2007 at 1:29 pm #

This verse is painted as a border on the room of our girls, we have three girls 4,2 and 6mo. . . “Oh how great is the love the Father has lavished upon us, that we should be called sons and daughters of God!” 1 John 3:1 What a gift to have His love “lavished” upon us. . . and that He pours out this love on our children. Seems impossible that He loves them more than we do as our hearts are so full when we see His reflection in the craftmanship of our children. And yet His love is great, and tender, and mighty and perfect and complete. And we rest it in. What an amazing gift to experience the love a parent has for a child. Now we get a glimpse of the Lord’s love for us. Incredible! Ella you are so loved!

Jenny Talbott on October 8th, 2007 at 2:23 pm #

What a cutie patootie… and what a head full of hair she’s growing…

John & Estela Williams on October 8th, 2007 at 2:38 pm #

Praise the Lord… this is such wonderful news. Reading your message today, make me cry. As I know what a softy you are 🙂

Love you guys and God Bless-

Laura Blackwell on October 8th, 2007 at 4:55 pm #

Rejoicing with you in Ella’s progress. She is so beautiful and sweet. Every baby is a miracle, but how much more is she??!! Continued prayers for the her, mom and dad and Dr. Kays.

Char Snyder Jordan on October 8th, 2007 at 5:53 pm #

Dear Josh and Tina, Drink in the love that shines through your daughters eye. She is part of you and you will never be the same ever again. It is an unbelievable experience that qualify you for the “parents” club. We have an undescribable connection and empathy for all other parents.
Oh my little Pillsbury Dough Girl you are awsome. What a beautiful child. Keep on going in the right direction. All our love, Aunt Char and Jim

Janice Kennedy on October 8th, 2007 at 5:58 pm #

We are praying for Baby Ella to continue to improve. Our 2 1/2-year old CDH son Matthew is praying for “Baby Ewwa on the computer” every night. I told him that she is being taken care of by Dr. Kays just like he was and that we want her to come home with her Mommy and Daddy like he did. You are both wonderful parents with a strength that Ella can depend on.

Lesli on October 8th, 2007 at 6:49 pm #

She is just so precious….Josh, when Ella is through with all this business and life is back to normal, you better keep blogging…or start preaching or something! We’ll be going through Josh’s Morning Devotion withdrawal.

Can’t wait to see our cutie tomorrow!


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